Last night when i was about to burst out,The words inside were about to explode, i Typed how i was feeling and what i have been through and what i wasnt able to express. i typed how i missed her, How terribly i was living in the time without her, when she asked: "how are you?" i Typed: "i Swear i am dying With the pain of loneliness, because of the distance of mile between us, I typed: 'i Just want you to hold me tight in your magical grip and ease my pain. I typed: 'am hurt from the depth of my shallow heart, in the darkeness of your absence' But before pressing the 'ENTER" i Pressed the "Backspace" holding the tornado inside. My fingers moved towards the key and i ended up Typing: ' I AM FINE!"
and left to my Bed with the sip of tornado & sour taste of tears, but dont know How ? i found myself in the darkness of night loosing control over myself my eyelids hugged each other drowning me in the valley of Dreams....
*PUNCH* *SHOUTS* *NOISE* *PUNCH*
i Opened my eyes and heard wierd sounds and hard punches on my face, i was receiving one after the other, Gripping me tight & yelling at me (someone) But wait!! am i dreaming ?
*ANOTHER PUNCH*
i rubbed my eyes and was shocked to see a huge structured thing standing right beside my bed,
Wait!
Its the "BACKSPACE" same like one from my keyboard, i Asked Why you are hitting me & who are you ?
it said: "You dont know me ? i am the one you hit daily ! and now when i am hitting you! you are surprized! wow!
i asked: "whats the matter with you ?"
It punched me again yelling at me: "that i am stuffed
to the peak inside everytime when i stand still and am about to pour all out"
you hit me right that time and compress everything inside ! why you do this ?
i asked: what i have done to you ? i dont understand what you are talking about (gaining my conciousness)
it replied: let me Remind you then!
#when you were away from home Missing you mom and family you were not feeling good with the things outside and you mom asked: "Hows you Son?" you typed your feelings and after you were done writing you "HITTED" me !
#When you friends were ignoring you and that was hurting you soo much ! you typed it all and in the end you "HITTED" me!
#when you were missing her terribly and was deeply in love with her she asked about your feelings you had a great chance, you typed all from the deep core of your heart But at the End you "HITTED" me!
#Why you hitted me when you typed a msg to your buddy that you need help and he is the only one who can help but in the End you "HITTED ME" and
said: "hey buddy you need some help am always here for you"
#when your Foe/haters were blamming you Cursing you ! you knew the reason which could stop them and was a punch in their face but instead of speaking it out you "HITTED ME"
#You typed in all your problems from past and till to know but everytime when you were done writing and was about to pour out you just turned around and "HITTED ME"
Why ?
Am Holding all of those actual feelings, pure feelings, Real Words, Straight talks, Reuquests,Secrets ,ager,Joy ,Tears, Everything related to actual you! But everytime you Punched me why you are creating a space in backword direction ? if you keep doing this your book of life will stay incomplete
Begging on its knee's Requested me that please!
i was standing cold there but as the tears rolled down from the edges of my eyelids reaing those unsaid words everything disappeared now it was Nothing But DARK!
-silence-
the sunrays on my face forced me to open my eyes again but wait!
It was a Light ray form my Pc's Screen i moved closer towards it and was shocked to see that it was the same time same Msg on screen of her Which i remember i replied to last night !
The Msg on my Pc Screen was "How are You?" after talking some time with strong determination i typed :"I am Fine!"
But Before Sending i turned around and pressed "BACKSPACE" and burst my feelings out! and typed everything inside "ENTERED"
SENT!
like a Door hole in the blackbox inside the tornado slowly slowly makings its way out for freedom, in the mean while called my mom and spoke my heart out to her with the fountain of tears from my eyes, i typed each of my buddy that how badly i was missing them and how badly i needed them around me,
done with pouring out the flask by midnight i hitted my bed, i wasnt scared of what the responce was or will be ! i was just feeling like a Newborn free from worried like clipped off the ropes tied to me, free from the burden of myself and first time i slept like floating in the mid Air
i was really feeling GREAT !
Ops !! Backspace <--- *CLICK CLICK*
I was Really Feeling AWESOME"
-Written By: Xyed Naumi
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